I’m trying to get you out of my head, but you keep ending up in my space. I keep thinking –
零、you know where that road goes. Don’t walk that way. You’ll just get splinters in your hands and face.
I go through the barrier of my door into my room, sit on my bed, strum guitar and think…
I must be right.
部屋出て、娘茶をつかって、ごばんを食べて、勉強して、何かをする。。。(And then I leave my room to make tea, to make food, to study, to do a thing…)
And there you are.
I promise I’m not trying. These meetings are complete chance and accident. And I am not looking at you because if I do, I think I’ll lose it. But you talk to me and I can’t reason why.
I just keep trying to believe that I know what I’m doing. I keep trying to pretend that it has no chemical effect on me. I keep acting like it’s nothing.
But, Kaiozku, I feel the wheel is upside down.
What do I do?